Sunday Movie Watching lol

So, I watched Lifetime's presentation of a movie staring Jill Scott and this other young black actress,Nicole Beharie. I now have a crush on her lol

Anyways, the movie is called "Sins of the Mothers"

GREAT GREAT GREAT MOVIE!!!

Oh and yes Men do watch lifetime lol

Any hoot it was great---I soooooo wish I was the guy she(the young girl) ended up meeting lol

Climax of the movie obviously was the best part, but damn If I ever stood up to my mama like she did in the church I would've got knocked back a few generations lol and probably by somebody else mom lol

But yeah, good ish Lifetime! Make more of these movies lol, less psycho killer man bashing ones.

Anyways though, this week will be busy, maybe a few blogs will come from this.
Later though.
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2.13.10

I'm making myself blog right now lol.
I haven't done a serious, consistent one in so long that I feel weird even being signed on lol...back in late 2008, early 2009 I was heavy on this. Since then its been a bunch of random, false promises of blogging lol...Even though I'm still sure that no one will every read this--I will still do it for self fulfilment.

So yeah,
I've been going through it (low key might I add) emotionally. Caught between feelings. One of those on the one hand..blah blah blah...but on the other hand..blah blah blah..type situations lol

I'm not really trying to figure out what to do about it, but I would honestly rather not be dealing with it. It kinda boils down to me being single, and to not beat around the bush, single life sucks...NO this has nothing to do with V day. I've celebrated that "holiday" a lot the last few years. Whether with friends or that "one", and I understand the commercialism about it. You know--the whole get your girl/guy flowers and candy and a bear and whatever else. I participate and indulge in those gifts myself lol but see when I am with someone, I treat them special 365, however random or weird...I don't pick one day to show up and show out--feel me?

Anyways I'm really just not digging this single life. Kinda want something to happen now, opposite of how I had been feeling. Being single is one thing, but living along day to day sucks lol--just need somebody I can grind with (no pun intended) and can grow with. Not looking for kids or marriage, but damn I do wish I just had that support system that I could depend on.

Oh well, we'll def. see what happens.

I'll try to make it back to this thing later.
peace.

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Just something I did on my BlackBerry

Not gonna prof read this or even edit it lol just feel like posting..
so
here


it





goes..



What does friendship mean in this day and age? Do we have rules? What is expected?

Beats me.

I guess if you do consider yourself a "good" friend, then there should be certain guide lines u abide by. We all have different, unwritten codes of conduct. No outside person should ever break the bond shared, no outside influence shall take over our way of thinking toward one another, and I guess the last thing would be communication is key--or we have no REAL friendship. There's a lot more but I think they come from those stated above. I've said before that things between two or more ppl should be 50/50 or however u break it up--but ill just say for now, just hold your spot down.

Consider your friends opinions, and feelings before rushing off to do things.
Ask yourself, "What will he/she think if..blah blah blah"--Just be conscious of everyone/everything.

Nobodys perfect, and stuff does happen. Even the most long tenured friendships come with a test of will power from time to time. Its just a matter of taking those responsibilities head on--together--.

"Maturity(let's say within the friendship) does not come with age(how long you've been friends), but, with the acceptance of responsibility"

*deep breath*
Bruh, Life really sucks sometimes. Yeah, sounds cliche(sp) but I don't care. Shit just sucks at times. Damn. I really want 2 feel different about everything. I know I'm blessed to wake up each morning, and please believe I thank God any and every chance I get. Really though, I thank him before I sleep, when I wake, during my shower, when Im walking to class lol, all that. But stuff just still feels so much more awkward then they should be. I see to many voids that shouldn't exist. Sucks man. Damn. Family acting...well, I guess the term would be "brand new". This is why I used to wish I wasn't the oldest when I was younger, or the only boy for that matter. Damn. Can't believe the same shit that pissed me off when I was 4, pisses me off now at 22. Seriously. I don't really want to hear, "thats life, get over it" cause I already understand that. Guess I just want to finally complain about it lol, I try not to so hard though. Life is what you make it. You shouldn't have to please anyone else but yourself, but thats bullshit when all you ever had your whole life was your sister and your mother. Those are the people I had/still have. Every move I make in some way or another has something to do with them and there approval, yet I still try to distance myself so that know one can say they did anything for me. Make sense? I dunno, def not going back and editing lol

FML!!!

ugghhh man im out,
hope shit clears itself out cause' I'm a couple steps from saying fuck it.

..not really
peace.

Figured it out

Greetings and salutations lol,
hope all is well with everyone. K let's get to it lol,
I brainstormed something at work today with refrencebto this blog. I figure I don't want to give up blogging because it's just to good of a venting tool for me lol. I love the main point of sites like Twitter, that being say whatever yo want randomly 140 characters at a time. Still though I like using this for the same thing, just in a more organized manner. Hopefully it will make sense down the line lol.

What I plan on doing is using this for a week in review type thing, meaning I'll most lowly only post here once a week. I'm holding every Sunday evening. So yeah we'll try this out for a while...
...
lol
k...

Week of 9/14-9/21
Monday- began pretty comfortably. I had been sick the previous week and was truly just getting over the symptoms. Beig sick SUCKS. I had not struggled that much at a job in a while. I can't ever remember being so sick that I was about to pass out. Not since I was younger atleast. Anyhot that's an experience I would not like exeriencing the rest of this fall(wishful thinking maybe?) oh well lol...but yeah I got through Monday pretty str8..

Tuesday- was hectice, as it usualy is being that it is my busiest(sp) class/work day. Woke up around 1030 hateing that I continue to sleep in during the week but am able to hop my ass up fast as hell for work on Saturday and Sunday lol. So yeah I made it to class stupid late. If anybody reading this was ever in or still in college then you know parking is a biotch lol.. So yeah it was one Get car inspected 
Clean car out
where I said eff t I'm late I'll take my time lol...I made it to class and was pretty str8 with what I caught on to. Math has always been a weak subject for me but wiu my added motivation from passing in summer school lol I figure I'll be fine. So yeah left class and definately went home and got lazy lol shouldve went to work but made that opposite move. I think I blamed it on still feeling "sick" so yeah missed that lol
hit biology at the six o'clock hour. Texted my way through lecture lol, then hit up lab and did my thing. I haven't taken Bio since 10th grade so you say I'm rusty lol but I'll figure that ish out too. Got home late after a Wally world run and then chilled for he rest of he night.

Wednesday- no class!!! Lol love my class scheule this semester...anyways I chilled for the most part until going to work then went and hit the mall wig friends. Also went and saw Tyler Perrys new joint,"I can do bad all by myself" It was a damn good movie. I didn't get as emotional as a lot of others did but I felt it lol...that was a fun day..

Thursday- more or less was the same as Tuesday except I didn't have a lab to go to.

Friday- chilled all day until gointo pick up a couple my pols. Ran aomeerrands and chilled mostly. Bought my touch:) which is what I'm using now lol to blog that is...

Saturday/Sunday- work work WORK...that's all I feel like I did lol that and ate, slept. Thank God I only see that building twice a week. I've been hearing that some "bad behind back" talking has been going on. Let's hope not lol

guess that's it people lol...mind you it's now 5 something in The morning, just doing this mock blog lol
I'm def. Aiming toward keeping this up. It helps internally lol
but yeah peace y'all.

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New ish!

Oh sh*t yah boys back lol
guess I'll ask again who the hell am I talking to? Lol oh well maybe I'll get some Twitter readers lol yeah I said it. The whole reason I been absent is because of Twitter lol my bad blogger I just lost my mojo but hopefully it's back and stuff. Anyways I'm doing well just trying to figure out life iguess lol cornyyyy Lol anyways I got a new toy:)
I have been a pro blackberry ani iPhone person for a while lol but like I never haD a big problem with iPods. iPod touchs to be exact. Look, long story short,this thing is the SHIT. If you haven't guessed I'm blogging from it now lol

Here is my advice to anybody contemplating a phone decision. If you like the all in one combo, phone with music Internet blah blah blah then the iPhones cool BUT I think it's just to expensive. I have a BB that u only spend about 80 on a month. With the touch I get eery feature minus the camera that the iPhone has. And everything I download is free lol so yeah...

Anyways this is my I'm back blog lol...I have some BB memo pad blogs to post later and mad other ish to talk about, later lol

But yeah stay blessed.
Peace.
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RIP McNair

One of the Greatest Professional/Collegiate football players to ever lace up.

Buzzed like hell, almost ready to pass out. Just randomly felt like blogging. Watched this crazy ass movie earlier with the smart dude from ATL, umm his name was????? esquire that's it lol I literally stopped typing for 2 minutes to ponder that. Anyways, it was pretty good. Drank my drank lol layed back and parlayed.I'm starting to want a "chill" chick to hang around...been hangin with my boys to much*pause*
Anyway, I did a lot today, well yesterday rather. Life feels great when you actually utilize the time you're blessed with. That make sense?maybe not, who cares though cause I still don't think anybody reads this lol.
Randomly I just realized how much I hate that my car is f*ckin up left and right lol, oh well though ill make due. Shit I'm bored as hell now and beginning to realize how random this blog is going to be when I read back over it lol,


Damn I should go to sleep.


"She's my little quarter back, yah digg? Cause' I'm all that in the sack, yah digg?" -Jigga

K its time for some sleep lol
*random*
g'night all
peace
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So as of late, twitter has taken over as my outlet for random, first thought commentary? Lol of what I'm doing or for where I'm at(not really) but don't worry blogger, I haven't forgot about thou...(Mad I'm speaking to the site) anyways, things have been going really well for me. Honestly just the same as its been but I think that's good. I've been in summer school the past several weeks and I'm doing pretty well. I've also been going hard, working as usual. And I've also been chilling whenever possible, catching up with my friends from time to time. I'm really glad I've been able to find the time to do that seeing as how I've noticed more and more lately that we all are going towards our own individual paths. Its all great to me. But yeah, I'd grade my summer and overall happiness with things right now as a A-/B+. It would probably be an A+ but I figure there's always room for improvement. Umm what else? I think that I'm missing having that "ride or die" chick by my side this summer as I find myself wanting that extra support or hug,kiss,touch, etc. So yeah that's missing. But yeah things are great overall. I'm dreading going to work in a few hours but I know I must. I'm gonna have to work on not beating myself up(not literally) over the things that must happen, like, school and going to work. Its more going to work these days lol but yeah ima try to finally put this blackberry down. Before I do, I want to say RIP to Michael Jackson, Farah Faucet(sp) and Ed McMahon. Its been tough for a lot of folks. But yeah, be easy all. Till next time.
Peace
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u know I had to do it lol

Happy Memorial Day everyone...enjoy you're families, eat lots, and remember the people for whom we recognize this day for. Be back later ppl...
Peace

brb

I should really really reallyyyyy stop leaving this thing for so long lol...I will def. Be back...check for another "bored at work" post and recap on what's been going on.
Even though nobody reads this(most likely)
But yeah ill be back.
Peace.

Twitter

is cool? I guess lol
follow me if you want. lol
peace.

from the little corner in the back of the room

That "room" being the big ass library lol
Yes, I am in the library and actually getting some work done. I felt like I should use my "free" resources lol even if I have waited till damn near the end of the semester to do so. I've just never truly ever been a "library" guy. Like I usually just get in my room at home and go to work. But yeah this is pretty cool. And seeing as how I've procrastinated a lot lately, this is a good way for me to catch up without getting distracted at home, although i'm here on BLOGGER right now lol. Anyways let me get back to this stuff here, be back later.
peace

Class is a draggggg today. lol
peace.

Part 2:
why do I continue to play myself?guess cause it seems so easy to quit,id never be able to forgett it.i hope smthng comes from this stailmate.damn

I have so much to say but I open my mouth just to hear a bunch of dumb ish come out.Its makes so much sense when I'm alone yet when I tell you, I freeze.F*ck!

word

So that mobile blogging def. works great! so now I can just type randomly from my phone when I don't feel like logging on lol
So anyway what's up blogger??
Nothing here with me.
I should really be studying but I just keep finding other stuff to occupy my attention. Don't worry though, eventually I'll get to it...for real lol I'm not just saying that.
Anyways, I've just been thinking a lot today. Randomly catching myself off topic, or well like dazing off into something else completely opposite of what I was doing. Did it in the store, in the car on the road(which is probably not a good look)and even in the bathroom lol I was shaving(also probably not a good look). Random ish just keeps popping into my mind. Nothing to serious, just stuff about money, my situation in a few months, you know like where I see myself, and even stuff like I wonder what such and such is doing blah blah blah. All just random lol.
After I realized that I've been doing this all day I started to wonder was it on purpose or was I just looking to deep into this whole situation lol, and you know I probably am. But hey, it's something to type about lol because I find it harder and harder to figure out stuff to put here, when like I try to...like If i log on to post for no reason or haven't had anything going on, well its like pointless lol. I get here then I babble(like I am now) and then I leave. The mobile ish though will help because I can finally have a way to type str8 here as sooooooooooooon as something happens lol or runs across my mind, or whatever. Thats why I like this thing though, it's completely random. What a great thing for such a random person(me)
Anyways I'm going to find something to do or try to get lost in thought again lol, I'll get at this at some point soon.
till next time,
Peace

This is a test post to see if the mobile blogging thing is working.
peace

It's harder and harder to figure out title's for these things lol..geeshhh
Anyways, Whats up blogger?
Everything good here, Just chillin on the couch.
I'm trying to figure out what to talk about..hmmm..
Oh I know I was on some phone review site earlier...Im debating on either going blackberry or iPhone
I mean yeah I know what both phones are good and bad for...I just wonder which one I'll be happiest with. Probably either or honestly, but I dunnoe at the same time.
Oh well though, it's cool to think about but it will be a long while before I make a decision on that. I have other ish to pay for lol
So yeah If you look up top, you'll notice my new glasses...wait, here look down..


Don't mind the pose lol I was trying to look good andddd hit the button lol multi-tasking..

Its hard to get used to something constantly being on your face, but I'll deal because my vision has gotten 10x's better.

So yeah anywaysss Im bored as hell..guess i'll watch some more ESPN.

peace.

ongoing struggle

This question/problem/scenario has been coming up a lot lately. I have asked myself this, and I even have friends doing the same...

Can I or anybody else be held responsible for things I don't know about? Like, am I expected to be a mind reader? Expected to understand things for which I never knew existed between us?

No.

I've said time and time again to folks(couples), that people who don't communicate,won't know two things: Who THEY are and what THEIR relationship is.

It's shared, whether its accepted or not...the relationship I mean.
This goes for anything, friendships, bf/gf relationships, marriages, etc.
You cannot expect anyone to know whats going on with you if you don't get at the other person with your problems, insecurities. It's understood how hard that can be at times, but when that other person is trying to work with you on it, you don't just let the guy/girl look stupid. Acknowledge that they are trying and do your DAMN best to try and help the situation, don't hurt it.

Now, mind you I am not a professional on this stuff, its just how I feel and what I've figured out in my experiences dealing with similar situations.

I have been going through a "situation" where I feel like things don't seem like they will change for the better. But I have to keep reminding myself...
"When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit."

Damn that was long lol but true.

Forreal i was going to post about how bad I feel and how mad I am that I feel like things will never turn out how I want...but I've realized, The harder I go, the better I get...and even if things don't turn out how I may want them to, something great will come about sooner or later. And I wan't to stick around to see that later, no matter how long it takes.

peace.