Dont get to comfortable

So...

I havent been around as much as I would like to...I've been saying in earlier posts that its been because of work, maybe an illness, and school..all of that..

Well yeah its the truth lol but still I've figured more and more that anybody here reading is cool peoples, and if you don't read it..Im not mad lol this is for my own benifit so what I do, or don't do is up to me...lol

That wasn't directed at anyone I just felt like clarifying.

Anyways to get to what I was wanting to blog about...

If your friends with me on facebook, then you know that my status as of 10:30ish said something to the effect of...

[my.name.lol.]..."is sad he had to get somewhat of a reality check tonight...however small, it still hit me harder then a bundle of bricks!..we as a PEOPLE have a long way to go."

So Yeah...Earlier tonight I recieved a big reality check.  I guess you'll want to know the story behind it...mind you it isn't as big as it might seem when you read it, but understanding my own positions and past experiences, it hit harder then expected...

LET ME REMIND YOU BEFORE YOU KEEP READING THAT THIS MAY NOT SEEM BIG TO YOU BUT IT EFFECTED ME..lol

Me, my girl Drea and my girl Danny(her names daniel but i always spell it wrong from how she does lol)...well anyways we all went to get some food...I had just left a music rehersal and they where doing laundry, so I figured they would want to take a break go get some food since I know I hadnt ate and they know they wasn't feeling that wack ass cafe food lol...so yeah we went to this little strip full of places who where still open.  At first we decided to hit subway...I mean yeah some of yall dont like them lol I dont especially but I love there 5 dollar footlong menu lol butttt we quickly decided not to do subway last second after we walked in just because of my girl Drea was like nahh I want a salad lol so whatever we go next door to this pizza italian type place.   She ordered an Greek Salad or whatever and that was that.  After seing those prices lol me and Danny quickly decided to dip right back to Subway lol...so yeah we all got our food and was about to sit and eat...Then Drea realized that she didnt have any type of eating utinsels...so me being the nice guy that I am, I went and got it for her from the place next door...I walk in, and there was about the same number of customers that was there when we first walked in...ummm ZERO lol...they owner was sweeping, and the cashier lady was wyping down the tables...anyways I ask..." hey can I get some silver wear, my friend didn't get any for her food"...he goes.."sir you have to(stuttering) by something to get silverwear"...I guess cause he was mad me and danny left, he figured he'd make his point by letting me know that I couldnt get any of his DOLLAR GENERAL silver wear that was complimentary unless I bought something...so I say to him, "its not for me its for my friend who bought something earlier.." he looks back at the white woman, and says "well, what did she buy?" very sternly, might I add, as if i was lieing...Okay again I say I was only asking for afork really lol...anyways this dude listens to me say the girl bought a salad, matter of fact a Greek Salad...before I could finish my sentence, he was rushing to get my friends silver wear...i mean dropping other stuff lol just to get as if he realized..CRAP I MIGHT HAVE EFFED UP THINKING THIS DUDE WAS TRYING TO PLAY ME....

anyways not to keep typing lol it only made me feel bad inside because i felt as if he had profiled me as some dude trying to come in and use his silver wear for other peoples products...well if this was a resturaunt, or even if the stuff had his name on it, i wouldnt have asked...im not stupid, I know if you want a cup, or some ice, or anything in between dealing with food then yeah, you have to buy something...but other then that come own, a fork? a knife? a diffrent colored plastic one at that?...damn man lol

Like I said if you've read this far, you would see that it wasnt as big as it might sound after u read it, or whatever, but I mean to me it just made me realize how far people have to go mentally...It sucked bad to feel like that...yeah I wear jordans, i had on some nice fit jeans yah know, not Lil Wayne fit lol but they werent like super bigg...yah know a black tee, regular fit...and a damn hoody lol I mean hood? not really...was I walking with a limp? NO lol, was a black guy coming in alone asking for something free, yeah lol but thats not bad to me...oh well maybe Im makign a big deal out of it but it sucked to me inside...I left out a lot of details because this thing is long as heck...I mean dude looked me up and down, saw i was being sincere...I just didnt think asking for plastic forks and knives was a bad thing lol...he saw me leave because I felt like it lol nothing against him, just 8 dollars for some pizza or a salad isnt that appealing to me...yet when I come ask for a fork, he flips the script on me?, maybe people will say he didnt and that Im overreacing blah blah blah but you would have really had to be there to get my drift...lol sounds so cliche? but who cares lol It happens right..

God bless that dude, but he def. isnt getting my service no more...I feel like If I can't get silver wear, for somebody else who did buy something at that, then eff it lol...his food isn't even that good...I havent went there to eat since like 2005?maybe?lol who cares

Anyways this shit long lol damn...I feel better now but i felt like typing it...no matter how bad, a little bad or a lot bad?lol u know what I mean...issues like this matter to me

How dare we talk about big stuff without understanding smaller situations...

Sorry for allt he mis-spellings, you should know by now that I don't like hitting spell check lol and I don't really use full complete sentences at times...I like typing how I would want to talk this stuff out sometimes, and that's not always in complete sentences..lol well it is but it isn't...u got me?lol probally not...but fuck it I'm probally theonly one reading this..lol

But yeah schools good, works good, everything str8 lol

Ima hit this up later

"stay sucker free, an stop suckin on me.."

-jojo simons

AMEN lol j/k

peace.

Feb. 14th

Was straight..

I mean I didn't go out or anything to to "special" although I had a meaningful night.

Me and my homegirl chilled, like we always do...watched a couple movies

Madagascar 2 & The family that prey's...

Yo both were really good, specially the Tyler Perry joint.

I already knew Madagascar 2 was gonna be funny, cause the first one was classic...was just worried they might have watered down the comedy...meaning like in the first one they had some shakey stuff going on lol a few of the jokes had me saying, damn is this for kids?lol but I mean it was still good.

Family that Preys acctually had me paying attention the whole time...me and D was like damn, what the hell lol trying to figure ish out before it happnd...but yeah not to get into all my fav. parts lol it was nice.

..update..

But yeah things are going good for me..nothings really changed to much.  Still workign hard as ever, just have realized that keeping this focus/drive is tough when you gotta do it alone...guess thats why I depend on the little stuff that I keep hold of personally.  I'm tryin to keep it all together though, and I will...just have to keep praying, and motivated through everything thats going on.

Anyways though i guess Ill hit this up later, I'm a little beat from work earlier, andddddd its half time of the NBA allstar game...so yeah

Ya'll see Allen Iverson cut his hair off?lol damn Allen, I guess Carmelo got to you. lol nahh it was bout time I think..takes it back to the G-town days.

But yeah good game so far, time for second half momentarily...hit this up later though

peace.

Checkin in, just wanted to write while I had some time to post.

Tuesdays are great for me cause' I spend the end of the previous week doing so much that after I get done on Monday with work/class/etc..I like not having to really do anything till about 2 o'clock.

Anyways

Aint nothin been goin on,

Recently been re-evaluating myself inside, like emotionaly and all that.

I mentioned early when I first started this blog that some things had been going on witha girl, who I was with a short time but then we ended up becoming "just" friends lol.

I know everybody's experienced that.

Anyways, me and her are probally tighter then we ever we're when we called ourselves being together.

 However I still wonder at times if she thinks about being with me, like I do randomly when it pops into my head.

Don't get me wrong, I'm good being single right now...and I know even if I wasn't I'd still have to be content just because of the things that are going on around me, however

To be real, I miss her yo forreal and saying I don't or beating around the bush about it would be a lie.

I love that girl, and she loves me...we say it everytime we speak but it's more then words, we have a bond yah know...bestfriend type ish

and I love that

I just wonder, how would it be if we ever got back together yah know.

I talked to her about it the other day after we celebrated her B.day along with her friends...and we also have spoken about it the last couple of nights after we got done chillin, or hittn the gym.

We both basically came up with the same synopsis...that was that basically we probally could revisit an "us" later down the line but not right now...and even if we never did, the only thing I know I asked of her was that we just keep each other posted on feelings, emotions, thoughts..I know it can't be perfect, but I mean truthfully if she wants to make moves, other then with me, id atleast like to know, feel me.

She asked the same of me, and then she finally admited that seing me talk or even be friendly with other girls does set off certain alarms inside her lol...thats something I never knew affected her, even when we was together, so that kind of felt good.

Who knows though?, maybe we'll re-kindel(however you spell that, i refuse to spell check right now lol..lazy)

But yeah enough of that, what else...ummmm

I'm doing real well with my money managment/time managment/and gym commitment...hit that mugg up 5 times aweek monday-friday and take the weekends off, only because I work so early and then somewhat late into the evening so yeah I feel good about that.

Schools good, getting suprisingly good grades on Test's...No, im not stupid lol but to be real I'm not the biggest book worm I know lol so yeah.

I guess I should say bye now since I have to make moves soon, i'll hit this up later though

peace.

Super Bowl XLIII

So I havent been around to update at all lately due to a recent lost and re-gaining of laptops lol

Quick update then I'll get to the post...

Finally got my phone situation str8, for those of ya'll who know me...I hate not having a phone, but for the last I dunnoe how long(3 1/2 weeks atleast) I have'nt had a working cell phone consitently at all.  So yeah happy about that

..its a Treo by the way, still with Verizon...soon to be Verizon/Alltel I hear lol or something

Umm classes, work and all that still going on great, no complaints...school is getting a little tough as far as the work load but It's nothing I can't handle.

But yeah anyways SUPERBOWL SUPERBOWL SUPERBOWL

Commercials sucked, game didn't really get hype till about the 3rd Quarter for me but I'm glad i watched the whole thing....Larry Fitzgerald started to go off but it was to little to late...at least Kurt Warner didn't give up and I'm glad they fought till the end cause that was probably one of the best Superbowl comeback comebacks of all time...yeah comeback comeback...cause The Cardinals came back, then the steelers and again I think, then finally the Steelers pulled out.

I was gonna put a bunch of pictures up from the game but I figure ill just put pic.s of my personal MVP...which I think he got it anyways lol Santonio Holmes

Held it down when Hines Ward kinda disappeared and when the Cardinals where making there push he basically sucked all the wind out of the entire Defense.

Now, personally I think The Cardinals DB's could have atleast batted the joint down, specially number 20 but I can also see how you either think you have help over the top and you could also think dude was out of bounds, so either way...if this was during the Season it would have just meant another loss, but because it was SuperBowl Sunday It was the SEASON lol

but yeah Congrats to the Pittsburgh Steelers...who knows whats to come for next year..I still have a pro-bowl to watch lol and I won't make my football picks till later...

anyways yall be easy like always

will hit this up later

peaace.